Giggles

Wed, 17 Aug 2005 02:30:00 GMT

Well i wanted everyone to know i am having a baby boy! :)

Morning sickness sucks

Wed, 27 Jul 2005 18:00:37 GMT

I am really starting to hate this morning sickness. I think my boss is noticing too which is not good. In my opinion. I will have to figure it out and soon. ANyway I must be off work is calling me right now. :( Kids are interesting today. Ohh and my car yeah they fucked it up. And now i am pissed. They didnt fix the damn car like they should have. PISSES ME OFF. Anyhow must run. Talk to yall later.

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 20:07:29 GMT

Well i am yeah i am pregnant now. I am 9 weeks now almost ten which is interesting. I am debating on what to do. They nicknamed the baby wiggles. Its so cute~ :) HEEEHEEE HEEE HEEE Anyway i am sitting here at the moment just getting out from the hostpital and i am a bit loopy the gave me vicaden and phenogan which is making me interesting. Anyhow i must go.

Yeah

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 18:18:55 GMT

So i have not written in this journal in a long long time! The good news is I have a new car. I had a 93 plymouth sundance with good milage but my friend got into a car accedent with it. It was not badly injured or anything but everyone was pretty shaken up. The airbad deflated and everything. The bad part about this whole thing is the fact that i didnt feel safe in that car anymore. So i went out and bought a new car! a 2003 Impreza rs suberu. Yeah awesome car! Anyhow i hear little man waking up so i am going to get going. Update you all later.

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 22:16:25 GMT

Okay so Will is gone right now and i am sad about it. I cried my eyes out last night or rather all day yesturday because he is gone. I feel like i have lost a brother just like i lost paul and feddy in the marines. Ahhh. Life other than that is good. i am working two jobs and it is going really well. Really well, i am just tired and sick. I am taking some really strong meds that are making me very interesting. Anyhow must run for now!

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 01:03:13 GMT

Migranes are Evil! I have had one all week long and haven't been able to update. Can't write much head hurts too much. Doctors appointment tomorrow nervous.

Yeah

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 18:02:40 GMT

Happy Halloween everyone! I forgot to write in my journal yesturday so i wanted to wish everyone a happy halloween. Well yesturday I hung out with Mikey until around six! :) He and i slept for some of it though cuz we were both really tired. So around 4:30 or 5:00 he and i went out to dinner to the Outback Steak House. That was awesome. The food was really good! :) Then i came home and answered the door for halloween! The kids were soo sooo cute. Anyhow things are going well. i am still exhausted but thats ok. Hope everyone has a good day!

Ok Question

Thu, 28 Oct 2004 19:34:07 GMT

Question: If you could create a bumper sticker that would describe you what would it be? And Why? Would love to hear what it would be!
*side note its freezing outside*

fun

Thu, 28 Oct 2004 18:01:51 GMT

Well today will be interesting to say the least. I am sitting in the computer lab at school right now cuz i have nothing to do until 11:20 when my class is. I don't have English for the next two days meaning today and tomorrow. I had to drop karate because of my back. I am having these muscle spazms that are really bad in my lower back and i talked to my physical therapist and she said i can't take karate anymore but i can join a gym so i am joining a gym now! :) I am excited about that. I am losing way too much weight way to fast which is odd. And i will tell you something i am eating right and everything. Its really odd. I can't fit into any of my cloths again. They are all too big! I am a size ten now which i have to say is good. I will see today of how much weight i have lost!
Besides from that Mikey and I are back together! Yeah i am excited. I have a really good feeling about it too! Ohh scary thing happened i had to move two cars from my neighbors car park thingy. I was kind of worried about it but everyone i was talking to about it said you have plenty of room. Well I didn't because if i scratched the cars it would be my butt you know cuz they are not my cars. I had a lot of fun the other day with Sarah. She and i talked which we havn't done in a long time. She helped me move the cars which i thank her very much for. Anyhow i am yeah board sitting here but i am having a really good day! :) Things are looking up for me right now so i am happy. Must get going back to doing nothing! :)

hmmmm

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 18:06:19 GMT

Well my b-day went well yesturday! I am so tired though. I am needing to sleep sleep sleep! Sleep is good! Anyhow i talked to my family about the truck and junk and they said that they are going to be working on it. Maybe even sunday cuz daddy doesn't work on sunday and i have no classes on Sunday! I am so excited to drive instead of taking the bus. I have however overcome my fear of busses some not much. I will only go to Bothell, Shorline or to my grandfathers. Thats it. Thats the extent of my buss riding. Its a good thing though that i am only going that far. :)Anyhow now i am waiting until i go to class now because yeah i overslept this morning because i had gone to bed late. I had such a wonderful birthday though thanks to all who made it possible. I really do appreciate it! :) Loves to everyone!

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 16:04:00 GMT

Yeah today is my twentith birthday! Yeah Yeah Yeah! I am older! Scary 20 scary! I am old too old

Change

Sat, 16 Oct 2004 20:57:47 GMT

Well theses past few weeks since school started i would have to say that i have changed majorly. So many people have asked me whats different. And the answer i would give them is that i have grown up and matured. I relized that i don't need any crap that people give to me anymore. School has been going really well! I have met a ton of people and over come a ton of my fears. The bus is still not my favorite thing in the world but my family is working on that at the moment. So You ask what changed? College for one, and two would be well i will let yall be the judge of that one.
Ok so what has been happened that is major that would cause the change. I will start with my grandfather. Mom left on the 30th of september to visit my aunt, uncle and cousin in Georgia. And My uncle Peter and Aunt Laurie were in china on business and we had there kitten for two weeks which i have to say he is one dirty kitten cuz he would tend to love to sleep in the litter box which i have to say was nasty nasty. So while they were all gone it was just dad and I and a house full of animals. Dad and i decided that we were going to work on the truck and get that up and running so that i could drive that car because we need a second vehical so that I don't have to keep taking the bus. Well on monday night dad and i took the truck over to my uncles and started to work on it a bit. Then we went to dinner and then home. Dad and i were just settling down to a nice quiet evening when someone from my Grandfathers bible study called dad and said you better get over here because Grandpa was acting weird. So dad and i climbed into the car and drove over there. Well once we were there some of the bible study members came outside and said that Bapa/Grandpa was having a sezier and that they called 911. Well Bapa was sezing on the floor and not responding to anyone including me and dad. It took about five minutes for the aid car to get there and i was shaking scared because he wasn't responding to anything. I sat there with him watching him thrash around. I finally tried to get a hold of my uncle Frank. I couldn't get a hold of him but eventually i did. Anyway the aid car finally came and they sidated him and everything in his house. They put this breathing tube down his throat and carried him out on a strecher and to hostpital. It was so creepy. My dad and i followed the aid car to the hostpital and parked the car. Once we did that we went inside and waited. Finally around 12:00am they told us that he was stable enough for us to go in and see him. So my dad, uncle and I went in to see him in the ER. He had this breathing tube in him. He was trying to take it out himself so i held his hands. He was awake and concious and he knew i was there with him and everything which was really good. Eventually they told us that they were going to take this breathing tube out of him but before they did that they said that they had to do an MRI. SO they transported him to the ICU where we were there until 4:00am. Then we went home and slept. I missed school the next day cuz i was the only one to stay with my grandfather. I sat in his room all day long. He still had the breathing tube in him because his MRI haden't happened yet. It was really crazy because he wanted that thing out of him and yet there was nothing i could do to help in in any way. IT took the doctors two days before they finally took that tube out of him. But i am getting ahead of the story. During tuesday I stayed there talked to all of the doctors relayed all the information back to family and the bible study not to mention the church. It was a long day. I didn't leave until 2 am wednsday morning. Mom and my uncle and aunt were supposed to come in that morning. I missed school again wed. and stayed with my grandfather again. I kept talking to the doctors who still haden't given him the mri so he still had the tube in him but they told us that they were going to take him off the tube wed right as i got there because he didn't need it anymore and the MRI people were taking too long. SO right before my uncle and aunt came they took the tube out. This whole time i kept talking to him and saying everything was ok and holding back tears. It scared me a ton. TO think i could have lost someone i loved. Once the tube was out my uncle and aunt arrived along with the pastor of there church. Everyone was thanking me for taking care of my grandfather including him. That same day once my mom got there they took him to a regular unit in the hostpital where he recovered and everything. I would go every day after class which was only thursday because i had no class on friday. SO friday i stayed in the hostpital. We always had someone there to talk to him and be there for him. He came home on Saturday but with carful instructions. That he have 24 hour care and that he use his walker and his cane. Well i have to say that they now call me the walker natzi cuz i make him use his walker. He is very stubborn. Anyhow this past week i have been going there every day after school and taking care of him while my aunt and uncle are out working and doing errends. I didn't have class thursday so i stayed wed night and that was fun. I didn't sleep all but two hours cuz i had to be awake in case my grandfather needed me.
So in any case i have grown up a huge bit. I have learned alot from this experience. My grandfather has even told me elisabeth there is something different about you. I have learned that staying away from my family is not a good thing and that i need there love and support and i know they need it as well.
Another experience i had was running into some bad people the other day. They followed me and it was really scarry but i didn't feek out and say oh no i can't handle this i handdled it in a mature way. When they tried talking to me i ignored them and basically showed my maturity. I faced my fears of Madison and Darcy from Roosevelt and I have faced a lot more fears in my life as well but that was the true test. For thoughs who knew me from before understand this. I am different. I am stronger and able to handle things on my own and in a mature way. I am no longer a teenager as of monday. I want the chance to show others the change and i know that it may be hard for everyone to accept that but you know i have and its ok. I am not a kid anymore i am a determined college student. I have backbone now.
I want to thank a few people who have helped me realize things in my life though. I want to thank Paul for starters. *Paul before you left for boot camp i was a mess. I know that and i know you were trying to help me and help me realize that things needed to change. I am sorry for not listening to you. You showed me that i can be a person without the drama and without needing things. You taught me that i didn't need to save the world but save myself. You are my big brother and i will always always remember everything. So thank you Paul* Mikey *Mikey you helped me in loads of ways. You taught me not to be afraid anymore. You taught me look at things in a wider perspective. I am sorry i made things crazy in the past. You are awesome and have a kind heart. You will always be my shinning star. I will never forget. Mikey always remember to keep you head held high.* To both Paul and Mikey i am so proud of you by the way for the way you both took charge of your life! To Will. *Wow words are hard to come by in this one. You are such a good guy. You have helped me realize a lot of things. You have helped me over come my fear guys. You taught me to be strong and not give up for what you beleive in. Things have always been hard for me and you know that but you have shown me things that will never be forgotten. Thank you Will*. Atumn *You put up with me and my little spells and helped me get a different perspective on things. You are a wonderful friend and i am so glad that you and Chris are doing really well. He is so perfect for you! SO thank you!* Erica you have been there non stop for me. You have been how should i say this my wonderfully awesome friend through everything. You put up with me when most others didn't. I love ya girl and thank you for keeping me strong! Seteph, even though you may not understand this at all you have also been an insperation to me in different aspects. you have shown me tough love through everything and that i have to say is so so so oh i don't know how to say this but you have been a good listener. Thank you for showing me tough love. I needed it and you gave it to me and that i will always remember and never forget. Thank you and i hope that maybe in the future you will come around and start talking to me again. Steph you are so sweet! Andrea wow you gave me a second chance after kings and i want to say you are awesome. You are strong which helps me to stay strong too. We laugh and have fun at school and that is awesomely fun! These are only a just few but i know this needed to be said. I am so thankful for everyone in my life and i have realized that yes i have screwed up but i am not dwelling in the past but in the future now and love you all so much!
So to end this huge long long thing. I would love to hear from you all and let me know what you think. Thank you all so much for all of your love and support. I will be continuing to update and tell yall whats been going on in my life. I hope to hear from you all soon! And don't forget friendship to me is important!

Wed, 13 Oct 2004 18:28:42 GMT

My birthday is coming up! I am going to be 20 years old scarry! I will no longer be a teenager! :( :) Its a good thing!

School

Fri, 01 Oct 2004 18:10:45 GMT

Well school is going well. My English class i love but my math teacher makes me feel really stupid cuz she talks down to us instead of encouraging us like she should. Anyhow i am sitting here waiting to get to my next class. I didn't have English this morning yeah! Hmm what esle can i tell you all. Moms gone for the next week so its just Dad and I and dad is working full time so its really just me now. I am sick unfortunatly which is not a good thing. I want to be all better! I am not supposed to be sick. But then again i went through all of the little kids that i nanny for getting sick so i am all good with the sick thing.
Oh the sad thing is that today is Busters birthday my cat who past away last May which makes me sad but i want to say to him anyway Happy 12th Birthday Buster! Nothing else is really up except i found muscles in karate that i didn't know i even had! Ouch really big ouch. Hurt pain yeah but its fun! I coach olivia in soccer today which i am excited for! I am ready to go! :) Well i have coffee that is calling my name right now so i am going to run and go drink it before it gets cold so you all i will talk to you later! Much Love

School!

Mon, 27 Sep 2004 05:33:28 GMT

School is tomorrow and i am very nervous for it to start. Guys tell me everything is going to be ok! There is nothing to worry about right? Let you all know how it goes tomorrow! Night yall

Soccer Yeah

Sat, 25 Sep 2004 08:13:55 GMT

Hey yall! Well school is getting closer and closer and i am a bit worried but you know i will get over it soon i hope. Anyhow today was the luckiest day of my life i worked with Olivia on soccer. I actually am excited. I take care of this little girl every week on saturday with her little brother but i am also training her in soccer. She is so awesome I am excited to maybe see her play tomorrow and see if she took my advice and started being more agressive. But I found muscles i haven't used in a long long time. ANyhow must run and get sleep!

Fri, 24 Sep 2004 06:54:52 GMT

Ok so school starts on Monday and i am scared out of my witts. I don't want to end up like i did at Roosevelt. That would be very bad. I am so scared about it. Please yall don't let me get back into that bad groove. Tell me i am going to be ok.

Crazy and wack

Wed, 22 Sep 2004 00:57:37 GMT

Well I have paint chips in my hair. My back is killing me from working and i am completely exhasted. But oh well thats life. Lets see what else we have in my life. School starts monday! :) Yeah! Must run.

hey

Thu, 16 Sep 2004 06:39:54 GMT

Ok so today was weird i had to ask a police officer to break into our car. How weird is that? Oh my word i felt like a total idiot. Anyhow Must go to bed! :)

hmmm

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 04:30:57 GMT

Well i feel like i have the terrible two's again. Olivia the girl i nanny for had a friend over and it was worse than ever! Its been a hard night. Anyhow i have a job interview tomorrow at 4 and i am excited for it! Nervous but excited. G2G for now but i will write more later.

HMMMM

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 07:15:41 GMT

Well today is an ok day. I have been stressed out of my fucking mind because a lady had been calling my house phone saying a lot of shit which could have wound me up in jail. But the fact of the matter was i didn't do any of the shit so it didn't matter. Mikey well i am done. I am tired of feeling like shit and trying to get approval. I am done. Approval is something that should have come naturally. Ohh well. I have moved on. I am not going to go out with anyone for awhile. I mean i am starting school and starting fresh with everything in my life right now so thats a good thing. I am having one of Wills friends come stay with me for awhile until she gets on her feet so i am excited for that to meet someone new. He promissed me to keep me out of my old habbits *which i can do myself* But he is looking after me and i am very thankful for that. I really am.
My good friend Katie is coming to stay with me for a few days. She needs a break from things and i haven't seen her in awhile so i am excited to see her and hang out with her. Chippy unfortunatly is moving to california with his mom which i am totally bumbed about because he was an awesome friend. On the whole Mikey issue all i want him to know is that I will always be there no matter what shit he is in or whatever i am always there. People would say get over him and let me tell you again i say i have. I am never going to forget the relationship though. Anyhow enough about that subject. I found out Gibby is in Jail. Oh my God its bad he is in Jail for attempted murder in New Jersy and Burglary here. I heard that from a good friend of mine and plus i read about it to. To think i knew him. Oh my God its scary as shit. Very very scary.
Erica is doing well, she is excited to move into her dorm room. Her room is on the 11th floor top floor. Andrea is doing well! She is pissed off at her boss but she is doing well. Me I am ok. I nanny tomorrow and kind of have my hands full because the little girl is having a friend over and from what her mom has told me she is a handfull. But you know what i am ready for the challenge. I really am ready for it! What else. . . . hmmm . . . . I also work on sunday with the infants which i am very excited about summer is at an end and i get to work with the little ones again. But you know what that is awesome. Well thats about it for me i am compleetly tired and needing to sleep! I had to make dinner yesturday after PT and wasn't done in the kitchen until really late in the afternoon. I could barly move after that. Sleep is a good thing.Yup off to sleep land. :)

Yeah

Wed, 08 Sep 2004 06:35:28 GMT

Well today was awesome! I had physical therapy which i hate as all hell. They always leave me in pain! I hate pain! Anyway I um was home the rest of the day after my best friend took me home! Mom and dad are back at school now which sounds really really odd but its true. Then later in the evening my good Friend Andrea wanted to hang out so she came over and we talked for a few hours. Then she has never been to the university village so we decided to go ahead and go down there. We then looked at half the stores and went to Jonny Rockets! Ohh the funniest thing she asked me today! She asked me if it was my dogs tail wagging or if he had a problem. (my dog is an english springer spanial which should explain it all). Hmmm Tomorrow i have a doctors appointment nervous about it cuz i hate them! But dad is taking me. I am going to come home after the appointment and then relax doing absolutly nothing which sounds like fun to me! :( Anyhow must go to bed and try to sleep! Hope to here from you all soon! I hope you all are doing ok!

Tue, 07 Sep 2004 17:07:50 GMT

Allo today I am sitting here doing abslolutly nothing. I have a physical therapy appointment. I hate them they always have me in pain. But its for the betterr! :)

Tue, 07 Sep 2004 06:16:40 GMT

Ohh ohh Funniest shit happened! My kitten Charlie literaly went head first into the toliet yesturday. He i think thought that the lid was down but it wasn't. I felt really bad for him. Luckyly I got him out and dried him off! But i don't think i have laughed that hard in a long ass time!

HMMMM

Tue, 07 Sep 2004 05:48:41 GMT

So my best friend is home now and i have so missed her all summer long. She is awesome. Haven't seen her yet but i will! :) Lets see i had a family dinner tonight which was fun. I baked an apple pie and everyone says its soo soo soo good! :) I am sitting here board and tired. Although tired could be a good thing. But who knows what things or life may bring. Life can be full of mysterious things. :) Have physical therapy tomorrow and then doctors appointment on wed and then back to physical therapy on thursday. All in all i am board. But you know that is ok too. I am working on that whole job thing and its taking me a bit of time but i might get that job at the bakery which i am very excited for! So who knows what life may bring!